Saturday, January 9, 2010.

I'm so afraid of death that I could even cry when I heard the word. Hearing from mum how grandaunt passed away make me scared. Now after knowing it, I'm so conscious about it. But sometimes I imagine all sorts kind of think. I really miss my grandparents alot. They are the one that support me in my basketball games. How I wish that they are with me now and can see the trophies I achieve for them. Pampering me with new shoes, jersey, and alot of thing was so unforgettable thing for me. How I wish they were here. If they still here, maybe I have already flew to Korea and get a VIP seat for the concert and shows. I really pray that they will be here again. I wanted a big brother but sadly I was the only one. But having 3 big cousin who is like my brother was a very fortunate thing and of course a cousin who always like my sisters. They never treated me bad because we grew up together. Spending the weekend together were the thing that I love.Maybe I should change myself as a girl and stop being a tomboy. But I cant do it cus I knew that I like some of the guys clothing. Before I die, Just let me say how much I love them and see all the people I want to see and of course send time with my Minho:) omg! I' already tearing :( I wish I all my wishes would just come true one by one...