Sunday, January 2, 2011.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
We went to town not deciding to celebrate new year but we ended up with them:) It was a funny thing and I enjoyed playing the dare thingy and watching the movie was the funniest thing:) We were so noisy when we enter the cinema. After which we decide to go home :) Im sorry Im just lazy to elaborate :)
Dear God,
I have been dreaming the same thing for 3 days and I'm really afraid. Saying this maybe a silly thing but really I'm afraid of the dark you had for me. Looking at my grandparents in heaven was really a very thankful thing I had. But why were there a angel which were in black. But when the world shut, I really want a the angel to bring me to heaven and not hell please. I know people might be laughing at this but if you were me I bet you will be praying 24 hour and begging for forgiveness. But if me I really want to ask forgiveness from my parents and people around me. If it were to be true I actually want to have the one I want to at least be with me before the time come. I may not know what going to be in the future but I wish that I really could have all my dream come true before the day I shut my eye for more than 3 day. I may look happy but actually Im worried .
My future ,
I may not know how you look like and where are you now. But I hope that when the time come, you would accept just the I am. How fat i am and How ugly I am. I may saying rubbish but I really worried. After reading a book I realised that god make us a pair when we were born but only that we were seperated and only time can bring us together. Of course I want to be taken care and less fighting and have our house built by the sea. I may imagine all this stuff but in my dream my granparents told me to dream,believe and achieve it with what you have. But if I were to go before you, I really hope that you were by my side sending me to heaven. Promise me that you will be by my side till death separate us and accept each other even how old we look like.
Im touched by this post:If i could have just one wish , I would wish to wake up everyday to hear the sound of your breath on my ear ,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek , the hug of your body on my skin , and the feel of your heart beating with mine .
Knowing that I could not find that feeling with anyone other than you .